i don't know whether to hate or love my senior. i can understand why she needs help. but i hate it when she gives me tasks that is under her jurisdiction. damn. can't even slack before my next job. aargh. yes, i should be glad that i can learn more since i'm helping her. but, i don't see the point in me doing something that i don't have all the knowledge for it. sighs. and i'm just praying that the job next week doesn't require OTs. sick and tired of it!

met up with geraldine on wednesday. what she said definitely makes sense. if i want to quit, i better quit now than fight with the next batch of fresh graduates. sighs, what do i really want to do with my life? and if i don't want to stay here, what would i do when i'm overseas? perhaps, now, i should just equip myself with the necessary skills first. in another environment, perhaps, the hours are not that long, i can bear it more.

went with j and sh to nus to catch a piano duel. wow. wow. wow. they were really great! makes me miss my piano even more. haven't been practising enough. keep going out!!! haha.... i have to sacrifice going out i guess. miss having my lessons with ms goh :(

feel like talking about u to others. but something is holding me back, which is very unusual. i guess, it's the same issue again. once bitten twice shy. haha. many of your ideas and thoughts resound with mine. haha, makes me wonder, are we too similar? oh wells, time would tell.

i guess, the strong barrier that i have isn't easy to break down. almost did recently, but it didn't turn out the way i expected. oh wells, that's life. haha. but something good came out of it. in the process of trying not to be bias, sterotyping a certain gender in a way. it's difficult not to, but i shall follow my heart for once, be less hard on u and me, and see how it goes. using the mind is easy, but dealing with the heart, that's when the whole ball game changes.

catching a movie later! hope that i don't fall asleep! haha, slept too late last night! asking my heart: why are u waiting again? it makes u happy? asking my mind: i feel sleepy, i so need to sleep. haha, guess what, the heart wins again.

gonna try to run this week.... ps!!! marathon!