the previous engagement ended yesterday. lesson learnt: go home when u have nothing to do. don't even bother waiting for anyone. go home early whenever u can.

sighs, i hate it when the senior asks if i have anything on. i'm like, can't i go home to have dinner? there's nothing for me to do. why should i stay. aargh! next time, learn, have the guts to just take off.

dnd is on saturday. think i shall try to look forward to the booze, otherwise, there's nothing for me to look forward to. i hate the politics involved in the committee. simply, it's full of shitheads trying to gain recognition. do what u want guys, but don't expect the rest to follow. aargh, sux.

being forced to take leave tomorrow. sighs, it's so stupid. it ain't our fault that we were efficent in the fieldwork. forced to take leave because of that? damn. i hate it when the company is so structured that they can't be flexible enough to tolerate efficiency. and since when is efficiency a bad thing. damn.

and i realise, i really hate taking orders from people. i knew it before, but working has reinforced it. sighs, why oh why are humans such social creatures. being at home for too long, i will feel like not interacting with people. and i've mastered the art of ignoring people that i don't like to a certain extent, so, i hate having to be nice to everyone at work, when, i probably feel like ignoring them under other circumstances. damn, politics.

sighs, when will my dream be fufilled?? sighs. hate life like this.