it's raining these few days... sighs... feeling a tad bit cold in the office. some musings on my part i guess. i'm not experiencing the joy that i suppose i should have. i think i'm really destined to be alone. don't really like the idea of someone knowing lots of stuff about me, i guess, perhaps need some getting used to? and i don't even know if i want it?

no matter what others say, i guess, ultimately, its what i feel. i think its quite clear on my part. i don't want any emotional attachments right now. as for sending out the wrong signals? well, i don't see any problems in that. haha. i'm not the one who is initiating everything.

and no matter how similar u want us to be, there are many differences. i think for me, it's basically east vs west. i identify that right away, and usually, most guys fail this test. so, nothing much to say, except that, u are a really nice person. am i confused? not really. perhaps, i need to practise how to reject in a nice way.

just had a chat with rebecca. perhaps, i guess, i'm just someone who doesn't appreciate things. i like being alone. hate committments. haha, perhaps that's just the answer to everything. oh wells.