february till now, 5 months exactly. haha, that's how long i've been out of action. sighs, people seem to want to blog whenever there's issues. sighs. teaching, like everything else, has it's ups and downs, and i believe that everything is linked. one thing leads to another. sighs.

sad truth 1: you have put in so much effort for your student and have seen improvement, yet, the mother chooses to entrust the child to another teacher.

sad truth 2: you are the last to know about sad truth 1.

sad truth 3: you should booklick the admin to prevent sad truth 2.

the mother of all truths: i know that i cannot expect everyone to like me, but it hurts so much, when as a teacher, i'm already planning the progress of my student and this has to happen. FUCK. perhaps, the stupid mother should stop looking at my appearance (oh, and she's so not subtle, looking at me from head to toe every single week), where none other parents have any problems with, and judge me. rejection, a process which takes place in many circumstances in life, where i have yet to fully comprehend. damn, it matters so much more when it's your livelihood. sighs.

and the stupid admin, which lacks of simple decency to inform me. FUCK. i have been nothing short of polite to them, not unlike QMC. yes, granted that i'm not friendly, but i have been polite. and this is the treatment i get. i will get my revenge (it's not childish and mindless, it's just fighting for my rights!!!), yes, i will. all the problems that i have with my students, will not be mine anymore. why should i adhere to the rules so much and to face disappointment in people that i have been cordial and polite with. argh.

damn, if i could anticipate all these problems, things would be so much easier. perhaps, having the experience and mindset to deal with all these, these would not affect me so much!! sucks big time. i guess, just part and parcel of my job. argh!!!

my conscience is clear. i always teach well, seen by the results that i produce and the rapport i have with students and parents. i guess, it's inate in me to just not get along with people managing me. haha, my problem again? well, i guess, at least i know my own strengths and weaknesses.

other things... i know i'm not an easy person to be with. often bad-tempered, sighs. i know that many things can't be helped, i know that i have to be more understanding. but sometimes, it's hard to control my emotions when things matter to me so much. still learning on dealing with my relationship. thing we are managing well, despite many downs recently. all part and parcel of learning :) thanks for being my understanding dear :)

can't wait to go genting!!