recently, our relationship has its ups and downs. more downs though. i think i'm trying to grapple with feelings of unrequited actions. it is undeniable that after some time, relationships do hit a plateau. certainly, expectations has to be rewritten and reorganised. however, it is just so difficult sometimes, when your heart tells u something, your mind says another, and your actions prove otherwise. 3 way that doesn't match.

i guess, i hate it when assumptions are made after a period of time together. both of us assuming that we know what the other party are thinking, making decisions based on just that. it hurts, because, i thought that i would not be what my parents are. are relationships' results inevitable in that way? routine and humdrum?

sighs, hate myself for the way i behave sometimes. trying not to be too violent and unreasonable, but sometimes its so difficult. hope that i don't have a violent streak in me.

work is getting boring. sighs....

sighs... communication with ppl can be so tiring sometimes....

thanks juan for the nice biscuits! shall enjoy it for my breakfast! it's nice meeting and talking to u again!!