boss is away! so happy... haha... oops.... think it's normal that all of us who have bosses will have this thought, no matter how high a position we are... haha... i have been confirmed! kind of expected it... well, no trying to be complacent or anything, but, i think it's more tiring to retrain someone new. am i a good employee? hell no. haha... i know myself. know that i could have given more, know that there are certain things that i need to do to assuage myself with the boss's goals, know that that to get a promotion/pay increase, etc, certain things that one need to do. however, i'm not that kind of person, never is and never will be.

am i happier? i can definitely say yes. in the sense that i know that i'm learning, albeit a little blur at times. i feel happier seeing my bank account increase. but, i feel more tired too. lesser freedom, it's something that i need to get used to. initially, i need to put in effort. now, it's more of a getting used to situation. haha... think i can control my sleepy modes much better now. my bio clock has switched significantly. from a night cat to a morning bird. well, this definitely needs alot of effort!!!

i've learnt alot from my previous work experiences. dealing with ppl especially, it's a form of art. when handled well, it can save me from alot of trouble. however, i didn't know that previously, which results in me being so easily affected by silly things. recognising that everything is because of work, i can manage my emotions better. however, complaining bitterly about my bosses is something that i will never change.

ok! something more exciting to look forward to! gonna make the decision of my hotel venue soon! can't wait to really plan my wedding themes, outfits and all!! need help from my sisters!! haha... it's exciting, but, i so need to lose weight! hiaz, i love food so much. trying trying and trying!!

my big one is sick. so poor thing... hope he gets well soon....
he's a big softie.. hehe... always putting me first.... :)