the holidays are coming to an end. and i have not studied all that i'm suppose to study. not that i'm feeling particulary down about it. and tutorials not done yet, and not that i'm particulary panicky about it too... so remind me once again, why am i still in school?

to a better topic. i'm going to france and london! haha.... i can feel a big hole burning in my pocket. well, so be it! i want to enjoy myself before working... *wide grin*

sometimes, i wish that u can see our friendship from both perspectives, instead of thinking that you are the one that needs pity all the time. perhaps, sparing a thought for me, my upbringing and family considerations instead of passing jibes at me all the time. i can take all of it, but my patience has a limit and it's enough already. if you did not go all sacarstic on me, i would not have been pissed by you at all. i'm at much fault too. i shouldn't promise so much when i could not carry out, but must you go all out to be sacarstic to me all the time. i have a life, perhaps, go find yours too, i'm an alone kind of person, if i have to literally spell it out to you.

sigh, perhaps, a good friend gone once more.... :(

sometimes, when i look at the whole situation, i want to laugh. i will not make myself foolish for a stupid guy. enough said....

so it all boils down to this. we have all grown up and matured. we can't say stupid and meaningless things like "we don't care anymore" simply, how much does it mean? i really can't judge much about another person, but, i wonder if people always think out of the box, stop thinking of the world around them, but think for others at times...

alright, enough about that. this always happens. the hopeful me always hope that things could be different each time, that i don't have to always be the one to take the first step regardless of who is in the wrong. yet, each time round, i'm always the one... i don't mind simply because u are. just that u don't often see it. i'll get heartache everytime yet, i don't see that in you. have u stopped caring a little each time?

when i've decided to stop having good feelings towards u, i've stopped. and yet, i heard something today that made me change my mind a little. haha, if it turns out well, then good, if not, then God has other plans. but i can't help but smile :)

so today is valentine's day. warmest wishes to those attached, married, etc. kudos to singles who are free of committment! haha. a case of not eating the grapes and labelling it sour? u'll be my judge...

usually, i don't really think about my single status. but when i do, i find myself looking around and seeing no one. that doesn't really bother me so much as before. perhaps, i need to be really alone before i feel that i need someone else to satisfy my loneliness... but again, i can always turn to GOD :)

i think it's really hard to find someone who fits all my criteria, there is no one who is a perfect fit, and yet, when there is, i find that i don't fit their criteria. sometimes, or rather, the idealistc one says love is enough. but seeing so many stuff around me, practicalism takes over? well, what do i know. i have much to learn.

so, at the end of the day, female power still stands. perhaps, when GOD decides i'm ready, i'll fine a guy who will make me want to fall for him all over again.

so here am i, on a monday morning, blogging away when i have a class at 1030. haha. oh wells, i'm giving it a miss. the reasons justifying are very stupid. simply, i do not wish to see my grp mates and feel so lousy just after cny. yup, it's really stupid, but i simply couldn't care less anymore. i was just thinking if i carry this attitude to my workplace, i'm gonna be so damn dead. perhaps, i'll deal with it when it comes then...

this year, for cny is simply FABOLOUS! haha. played much mahjong (could do with more). ate great food! wow. simply wonderful. on day 2, my uncle brought us to this restaurant for dinner. each table was about 700 bucks. OMG! let me show u the foods...!

this is the pumpkin dessert. doesn't it look simply splendid!

this is the 8 treasures tea! nice nice!

shark's fin! needless to say!!


scallops basket. heavenly!


duck with mushroom and vegetables!

haha, in case u are already jealous, let just say, thanks to my dear uncle! or i'll never have to eat such good food in the near future at least!

here are some pictures taken over cny!

the four lovely ladies... *winks*

my family :)

my twin sis!

another one :)

younger sis :)

that's all for now.... cny is over... sigh... back to hated reality!!!

so once again, i'm blogging after a long absence. this week is gonna be real busy, but i don't seem to get the motivation to do anything. sighs. and i'm starting to hate aa304 grp. i can't process fast enough, so am i gonna get lost in the corporate world? damn, it's just so unfair. bah! i can't wait for the presentation to be over. it's really stupid to fight in class to talk. contribute to get participation points. what does it all amounts to anyway? in real life, you are not gonna to fight for your right to speak in a formal environment. it'll lead to fight and chaos anyway. uugh! stupid stupid!

hopefully, i'll get the essay presentation done tomorrow, and the aa306 slides. many many things...

sometimes, i can't help but just wonder, when will it be my turn? *winks*