friendships. relationships.

as requested by dear ps, here am i! haha. firstly, i'm proud to announce that i've slept 8.5 hrs the night before! it's been a long time that i can have the luxury of at least 8 hours of sleep, even though, 7 hours is not that bad too. =)

yesterday's piano lesson was the usual, however, i seem to have lost my drive always after the exams. perhaps, the exams are rather far, so, i can relax, but, i will lose some of my motivation. =) haha. well, let me slack for a while. :p i hate rude students, and, i have this boy, who is showing real shit attitude towards me. well, it's my last lesson with him next week, and boy, am i gonna show shit attitude towards him. wonder how parents teach their kids these days. *despairs*

friendships is another form of relationships which i thought is relatively easier to manage then love relationships. however, the recent spate of events made me think otherwise. i've never thought that friendships is measured by the length of time you know another person. for example, does it mean that a friend i've known for 10 years should be more important then a friend i've known for a year, even though i seem to be able to share more things with this friend of a year. pardon me, but i've always thought that knowing another person is how unique lives are interwined this way. if i've met this person and we can share things together, eg, thoughts, ideas, feelings, doesn't it show how lucky we'll be able to become friends?

an incident happened to this friend of mine, and made me think, of friendships. they've known each other for about 8 years, and her friend accused her of treasuring friends she've known for less then 3 years then her of 8 years. to me, it's kind of stupid, when the things they are arguing about, of all, is about a guy. throwing a friendship for a guy, if u ask me, is pretty stupid... *groans* well, i'm really in no position to judge, perhaps, asking my friend's friend to be less selfish and think of my friend's point of view. *shakes head* although, i think that is unlikely to happen.

well, i'm not very capable of handling things in this particular department myself. however, i'm finding myself happier and lighter compared to previous semesters. what is happiness? perhaps, to me, it's simply, living for myself and not for others. not having to put on so much of a front. life is simpler this way. yes, i'm selfish, i want what's best for myself, well, i think, i have lived too much for others when they don't even give shit loads about me. :p haha, that's a little bias, well, i rather see less of people's "face colour" then giving my own "face colour". once again, my judgement about friendship, perhaps, our lives are not meant to be interwined.

my english is becoming poorer as the day passes. been speaking more mandarin then ever! aargh! i've been trying to articulate properly, it's my fear that i'll lose the ability to put sentences together! haha. well, it's happening bit by bit already... :(

anyway, the holidays, albeit, for a week, it's a much anticipated one for me. gonna go for many kbox sessions, movies, and of course, jogs, and sleep!!! a much dreaded quiz. BUT life's really great with the holidays!

ps, we are gonna go for kbox right??? haha.... miss mugging with u.... take care in US!!!