sometimes, it's really easy to tell from one's behaviour. i have given up already. it's really tiring to go from having expectations to realising that it's all rubbish. from the show of why why love, if there's no expectations, means there's no hope. maybe i should just start living by this motto, or have i not already?

tired. tired of starting to feel tied down once again. sigh, i don't understand why u always have that effect of me. trying not to think that u are using me, yet it is so hard not to. perhaps, it really is just a coincidence that circumstances are always such that.

trying to find the motivation to understand complex concepts, do my homework, go to class. and yet, it is not there....