Did it count?

it hurts. and it made everything that happened seemed like a bad dream. what we had, was it real?

i know i should not judge you, i should believe that what we had while we had was real. but it isn't, right?

you were suppose to love me the most. perhaps, i've drawn away the past few years, subconciously, cos i know that i had already lost you. lost you to the traditions that you were brought up with. i couldn't blame u for that, could i? u cannot choose the circumstances that you were born into. however, i really hope that you were different.

i know that i should move on already, i will and i can. i loved u once, and that was that. 

RIP.