so today is valentine's day. warmest wishes to those attached, married, etc. kudos to singles who are free of committment! haha. a case of not eating the grapes and labelling it sour? u'll be my judge...

usually, i don't really think about my single status. but when i do, i find myself looking around and seeing no one. that doesn't really bother me so much as before. perhaps, i need to be really alone before i feel that i need someone else to satisfy my loneliness... but again, i can always turn to GOD :)

i think it's really hard to find someone who fits all my criteria, there is no one who is a perfect fit, and yet, when there is, i find that i don't fit their criteria. sometimes, or rather, the idealistc one says love is enough. but seeing so many stuff around me, practicalism takes over? well, what do i know. i have much to learn.

so, at the end of the day, female power still stands. perhaps, when GOD decides i'm ready, i'll fine a guy who will make me want to fall for him all over again.

so here am i, on a monday morning, blogging away when i have a class at 1030. haha. oh wells, i'm giving it a miss. the reasons justifying are very stupid. simply, i do not wish to see my grp mates and feel so lousy just after cny. yup, it's really stupid, but i simply couldn't care less anymore. i was just thinking if i carry this attitude to my workplace, i'm gonna be so damn dead. perhaps, i'll deal with it when it comes then...

this year, for cny is simply FABOLOUS! haha. played much mahjong (could do with more). ate great food! wow. simply wonderful. on day 2, my uncle brought us to this restaurant for dinner. each table was about 700 bucks. OMG! let me show u the foods...!

this is the pumpkin dessert. doesn't it look simply splendid!

this is the 8 treasures tea! nice nice!

shark's fin! needless to say!!


scallops basket. heavenly!


duck with mushroom and vegetables!

haha, in case u are already jealous, let just say, thanks to my dear uncle! or i'll never have to eat such good food in the near future at least!

here are some pictures taken over cny!

the four lovely ladies... *winks*

my family :)

my twin sis!

another one :)

younger sis :)

that's all for now.... cny is over... sigh... back to hated reality!!!

so once again, i'm blogging after a long absence. this week is gonna be real busy, but i don't seem to get the motivation to do anything. sighs. and i'm starting to hate aa304 grp. i can't process fast enough, so am i gonna get lost in the corporate world? damn, it's just so unfair. bah! i can't wait for the presentation to be over. it's really stupid to fight in class to talk. contribute to get participation points. what does it all amounts to anyway? in real life, you are not gonna to fight for your right to speak in a formal environment. it'll lead to fight and chaos anyway. uugh! stupid stupid!

hopefully, i'll get the essay presentation done tomorrow, and the aa306 slides. many many things...

sometimes, i can't help but just wonder, when will it be my turn? *winks*

timetable blues... i can think of a million and one reasons to take a minor and also another million and one reasons not to take. if only i can find it in me the energy to fight for it. have sent in my appeal and am waiting for it. somehow, i'm already resigned to whatever fate that awaits me and also happily accepting that i have a 3-day week. oh sighs...

life is indeed very unpredictable. sometimes, i feel very helpless at situations and the only thing that i can do is to lend a listening ear. and i hope that it is enough. take care dear, hope life will be bearable for u soon...

school has officially opened. i'm going through the motions and routines faithfully. but, why can't i find in me the sparkle to interact with people, the motivation to do well. i'm already throwing in the towel internally without trying. i'm just doing what i have to do, without feeling like doing it. well, the comforting thing is that i actually don't mind doing it, even though i'm already numb towards any satisfaction i may or may not get. perhaps, it's all about getting used to things...

hope that i can sleep tonight. sleep has not come easy for the past few days. damn.

a day after my birthday. here's to all who wished me a happy birthday! thanks for remembering. in order of messages (haha)... aunt eleanor, unclelemon, yoke, jiaying, wanling, hui min, jiaming, jieling, candy, geraldine, aunt bee lian, yanzhen, mischelle, szee ying and angelina. the belated messages, thanks too! aunt yen peng and yi ming. thank you all :) i had a memorable bday yesterday with my twin sis, we caught a movie and had this lovely jap food lunch cum dinner and of course, shopping!

recently, i managed to complete all the books i borrowed from the library, very overdued books. haha. all are very interesting books which captured my attention, perhaps, i've never read storybooks for a long time. must start reading soon, otherwise my brain will go dead. haha. must stop playing computer games!

oh well, i might just have to live with a 5 day week. and the best of it, the last semester of my school life that i have to have a 5 day week. sighs. :( see how it goes, if i managed to get my module at all....

feeling hungry right now. control, i must lose weight! cny is coming!

i'm turning 22 tomorrow. people usually say let's hope we mature by then and face life with a renowned sense of purpose. somehow, i don't really want to grow up anymore, i have more or less grown up to a certain extent. this is to say, i don't look forward to getting older. more pressures, more expectations, more responsibilities. all these point towards committment(of any kind), which i hate. oh well, that really sums up my birthday. but i'm looking forward to spending bday with my twin sis :)

suddenly, the whole idea of couples seem to have magnify, especially with the year 1s (after blog-hopping). well, i would like to get attached when i was in year 1, however, after an unpleasant experience, and some serious soul-searching, it doesn't seem as important as before. there are many things that we can appreciate besides having another half. it all seems so tiring, loving someone without any gurantees, showing (horrors of horrors) committment and wasting time going out (oops). haha, perhaps, when i'm ready, i'm ready...

to u: take care alright. talk to me anytime. time will heal all wounds (sounds cliche, but it's really true)

i hope to feel more geared up for school. have to get rid of feeling simply sianz all the time. sighs.

i don't know why am i thinking about u again. is it a case of regretting after experiencing loss? i have no idea. once again, i find myself, trying to find out information about you. i miss you much more than i care to admit. and i don't want to justify what is the meaning behind this missing you part, i don't even know what it means. what i do know is that, i'm trying to find excuses to talk to u, perhaps, i just hate knowing that i'm truely misplaced, displaced and replaced.

today is a good day! =) went jogging with ps! it's been along time since i've ran on the track. it's good to see her after so long! =) stay strong dear.... i know you can make it no matter what happens....

school is starting soon. sigh, why do i feel that the holidays has only just started?