Had a lovely day with ps today. We must not be too lazy the next time! great time catching up :)

More pictures below!


Pont du Gard, my favourite place in Avignon

Beside Pompidou center, a lovely fountain


Basilique du Sacré-Cœur

One of the many parks in London! Look at how lovely the tulips are!! :) My love in the middle, ain't he so adorable?? :)

piano teaching. seems that i get rather worked up over it whenever the exams are near. especially, whenever i have non-cooperative students :( sigh. it's always a cycle. not that i'm that unhappy, it's just the kind of things that i can do without. and, the irritating thing is, it always happens near the exams period!

i have been giving u time to consolidate your thoughts, and i'm glad that things are fine for u. i have been looking for a sense of closure for some time, and, when i couldn't, i find myself being very nasty to u. haha. but it's over now, and the peace that i have now, it's very comforting. perhaps, i'm really that kind of person who doesn't like to keep any pages unturned, any chapters incomplete.

losing a fren, well, who doesn't care for what i feel. realise it only recently, when the quarrel, escalated into something major. all the time, i have been careful of what i portrayed in case, u get hurt. but when the ball is in my court, u don't care. so much for the friendship, huh?

many things to look forward the next week.... can't wait! kbox, outings with friends, swimming! bring it on!!! :)

some pictures from europe :)

france alps!




Saint Jean Cap Ferrat - Villa Ephrussi de Rothschild

my uncle's house! facing the mountains!



french rivierafirst time on a carousel

upload more next time!

suddenly, it just dawned on me. that i shouldn't become someone that comes online for a reason. where, the reason is a person specifically. i cannot ever fall into this trap again. i reminded myself today once again.

oh wells, the scent of romantic interest has been picked up by me. whether it's my imagination or otherwise, it certainly brought some excitement into my life right now. but, i can't let it overwhelm me, that's definitely dangerous, at least for me. haha. see how it goes, though, i'm just a little more than pessimistic regarding romance. don't think i will ever waver my decision not to fall in love that easily just yet. it's not the right time.

sex and the city was splendidly fabulous! a movie not to be missed! brings a lot of truths that are often ignored. ps, it's great to see you again.... let's meet up soon!

europe, should be talking about it, haha, kind of lazy to blog.... what can i say, next time i guess.... haha....

frustrated by things. any relationships are not easy to manage. yet, humans are social creatures. it's so complex. damn, and so far, the most challenging relationships that i've faced are family ones. finding myself affected by things, people. when, i usually forget them relatively easily. oh wells, one can't really stop the mind from wandering if the thoughts just come to me. sometimes, all of us must learn to let go better. i can do it, but learning to let go is not as easy as it sounds. i've always live by the policy of letting people do what they want, live how they want, as long as they are not hurting anyone. it's not as easy as it sounds as, but i can do it. and the point is, i realise i've let go at this point already. so, if others really want to nitpick at things, thinking that life is really pathetic for them, and everyone is at fault but themselves, i can only respect the decision that they have made. no matter what, it's a free country.

sighs, piano students, can't they just practise for once?

have to get my motivation for piano playing back. it's really not there right now :(

concovation is just a month and half away. don't even know what am i looking forward to anymore... life goes on, with a purpose, i've to find mine?

it seems as though all the thoughts i had in mind had disappeared. oh wells.... been away for quite a while, to be exact, 4-5 weeks. the first 3 was in europe, while the next 10 days were in australia. different places, different feelings. let's deal with the most recent one first:

australia.

we were in darwin and melbourne. darwin, i enjoyed the quietness. it was unlike singapore of course, a little town, with a small population. it's a pity that i didn't get to go around more places while i was there. perhaps, one day, but maybe not, many other places to visit.

melbourne, a bustling city. the shops close too early for my liking. well, different city, different culture. the first thing that struck me was the squareness of the city. everything street is well-labeled and organised. perhaps, a little too straight for my liking. but then, i feel right at home there, probably because of the vast asian population there. things are expensive there of course, oh wells, didn't have much time to explore the city throughly too. that's also a pity. will i return? hard to say, many other places to visit as well. haha. there's always many other places to visit.

expectations

perhaps, my expectations from the trip was very high. i thought that this is a group trip. since everyone agreed to go on the trip, there should be the effort to interact and make it a group thing, without any complicated relationship entanglements. as usual, i'm wrong. it was fun during the start, fun doesn't usually last. it was obvious that not everyone share my thoughts. people usually like to stick with what they know and am comfortable with, i can't argue with that. at least, i made the effort. even if nothing comes out of it, i've tried, and i can live with that. i'm idealistic, wanting the best, but it didn't materialise, but i've tried. once, i left, and i thought, it was a wrong decision. so, i try again now. it reaffirms the decision that i've made the first time i guess. it's time for me to acknowledge the truth that not everyone can hang around one another. perhaps, that's another facet of life that i have to learn.

perhaps, my actions also depict otherwise? sighs, what to do, can't really know what others think about me unless they say?

it's really great to be able to talk to you again. i really feel very comfortable around you. one of the few that i can share my thoughts as it is. i just don't understand, and till this day, i have not figured it out. there's this invisible barrier between us that always appear now and then. we don't really talk about it, yet, after a long period of not talking, we can still talk comfortably. i probably gave more thought to this friendship than i thought, and yet, things are always bumpy for us. move on. these 2 words seem equally hard for both of us. minor and seemingly unimportant things always magnify in my actions to u and vice versa. perhaps, that's the invisible barrier that is not worked out yet. competition? comparison? well, one day, God will show me the light of this friendship.

so, life, is really not a bed of roses. 2 more months of rest before starting work. have many things to sort out, basically, what i wanna do with my life. talk about my europe trip in the next entry. tired.... so long....

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sometimes it's really disappointing how people behave. perhaps, on our part, we shouldn't have force, but still.... sighs... i didn't know you very well but still, just wonder is it my "privilege" to see this side of you? actually something i rather do without

but still, it's good to see that others are doing well.

exams are coming.

so is my overseas trip.

let's clear them one by one.