expectations and losses

everyone seems to think that their life is the worst. ain't that the case? so that, when they arrive home, they expect everyone to accept their tempers, mood swings, etc, as nobody has it any worse then them. i'm no exception. however, a brand new day will begin, and another day will start with its new moods an tempers. so, why can't these people start sparing a thought for others around them, and, perhaps, they can see that their lives are not the worst of all.

lost, who hasn't lose things? and why do everyone seem to think that what they have lost is so much more than others? perhaps, by looking around, and sparing a thought for those who has lost even more, a home, a family..., ain't that worse?

i'm sick and tired of people expecting things from me. i've done what all u have wanted me to do. nobody has ever asked me what i'm facing, and results is what i'm expected to produce. and if i can't, it's my fault. damn, i'm trying my best to try and live up to all expectations and i'm very tired about it. try feeling stupid in a group of people when i don't even have to have the feeling of feeling this way. try to impress the tutors among people who are even better than you, when i don't even need to do this. what does all this point towards to? a better grade? in a stupid environment where i don't even want to be in. why am i doing all of this? for myself? if i have a choice, i would not choose this path. because i have none, because i know that i'm expected to graduate, wear the stupid gown, from a university. i have never thought of any other paths. yet, no one understands. taunts, insults, and i'm expected to accpet all of those? i've accepted whenever i'm being critised, yet, nobody ever understands how i feel. i've never expected to be asked, just to leave me alone sometimes. u have your bad days, why can't i have mine?

lost, i seem to have lost many things. a good friend to a boyfriend. the person i love to a friend. my confidence to a group of achievers. many things. yet, i can still laugh and see things positively. move forward, that's what i'm trying so damn hard to do, and why must all of you come poke me here and then. to hurt me even more? at peace, finding the peace, that's all i ever wanted to do. there are so many other things to live for, i'm living for them now. give me the peace.