i seem to always blog on a saturday. perhaps, need to release much added-on steam my students had given me during the day. also, having a bad sore throat. don't know if it's sore throat, but it just itches like crazy and i seem to be developing a cough :( sighs, hope it goes away soon.... nice day today though... aunt bl treated us to jap food! thanks :) also we managed to buy mom's bday present. and she likes it! cool!

had a nice dream last night, in fact, all of my dreams came true. kind of sucky for reality? because, dreams don't come true. oh wells, i can hope can't i??

have a nice week this week. went out to collect my stuff for convocation. met up with jy and wy. i've always enjoyed chatting to wy, somehow, this down-to-earth gal had the effect of opening my heart to sharing my complaints, opinions and musings about life. gal, life is very short, learn to live it to your own happiness :)

met up with gera after that. hmm, nice time catching up! it's always great to meet up and chat about family, friends, life and people. work life has started for u, and hope that we can keep in touch here and there :)

suddenly looking forward to convocation :)

today started off sleepy. i've purposely slept early, yet, still felt so sleepy. really wondering how am i gonna adapt when work starts :( sighs. many readings await me, but, i still can't get the drive and motivation to start reading them.

went to vch to catch a pianist, Christoper Taylor performing Goldberg Variations, BWV 988 by Bach. it was a wonderful peace. the theme resonate throughout the whole performance, and it was splendid. the second one wasn't so wonderful. perhaps, i need to learn to appreciate a seemingly calm variation without many changes in between. nevertheless, it has sparked off my interest and also motivation to go to more performances and concerts :)

more often than not, i keep thinking about my future. wondering, what will happen to me. not in the melodramatic sense, rather, do i want to be stuck here, in singapore, never accomplishing my dreams. i also thought of the courage that i need to possess to escape from here. i've never doubted the safeness of my country, my family and friends. but, there seems much to offer in life than staying here. always, the pasture is greener on the other side. but, if i don't venture out, will i ever know that the grass is the greenest in singapore?

i've never ever given you a chance before. however, after i came back from europe, i have been thinking about us, what u say. and i'm starting to care for you, looking forward to chatting with you. things and actions that i've never experience in a while. giving expectations is something that i will never do (once bitten twice shy), but somehow, i'm hopeful once again. hopeful that, perhaps, you can give me the courage to leave here, and pursue my dreams. i'm afraid, i might not have the courage once the expiry date i have given myself arrived.

thoughts. thinking far too much again. has not happened for a long time. good though. i need to think...

overall view of paris


the ticket says it all, the louvre!


some pieces from the louvre!

paintings!

ancient egyptian stonestained glass
Maman by Louise Bourgeois, famous sculpture....

night view of paris

just thought to share some pictures :)

Had a lovely day with ps today. We must not be too lazy the next time! great time catching up :)

More pictures below!


Pont du Gard, my favourite place in Avignon

Beside Pompidou center, a lovely fountain


Basilique du Sacré-Cœur

One of the many parks in London! Look at how lovely the tulips are!! :) My love in the middle, ain't he so adorable?? :)

piano teaching. seems that i get rather worked up over it whenever the exams are near. especially, whenever i have non-cooperative students :( sigh. it's always a cycle. not that i'm that unhappy, it's just the kind of things that i can do without. and, the irritating thing is, it always happens near the exams period!

i have been giving u time to consolidate your thoughts, and i'm glad that things are fine for u. i have been looking for a sense of closure for some time, and, when i couldn't, i find myself being very nasty to u. haha. but it's over now, and the peace that i have now, it's very comforting. perhaps, i'm really that kind of person who doesn't like to keep any pages unturned, any chapters incomplete.

losing a fren, well, who doesn't care for what i feel. realise it only recently, when the quarrel, escalated into something major. all the time, i have been careful of what i portrayed in case, u get hurt. but when the ball is in my court, u don't care. so much for the friendship, huh?

many things to look forward the next week.... can't wait! kbox, outings with friends, swimming! bring it on!!! :)

some pictures from europe :)

france alps!




Saint Jean Cap Ferrat - Villa Ephrussi de Rothschild

my uncle's house! facing the mountains!



french rivierafirst time on a carousel

upload more next time!

suddenly, it just dawned on me. that i shouldn't become someone that comes online for a reason. where, the reason is a person specifically. i cannot ever fall into this trap again. i reminded myself today once again.

oh wells, the scent of romantic interest has been picked up by me. whether it's my imagination or otherwise, it certainly brought some excitement into my life right now. but, i can't let it overwhelm me, that's definitely dangerous, at least for me. haha. see how it goes, though, i'm just a little more than pessimistic regarding romance. don't think i will ever waver my decision not to fall in love that easily just yet. it's not the right time.

sex and the city was splendidly fabulous! a movie not to be missed! brings a lot of truths that are often ignored. ps, it's great to see you again.... let's meet up soon!

europe, should be talking about it, haha, kind of lazy to blog.... what can i say, next time i guess.... haha....

frustrated by things. any relationships are not easy to manage. yet, humans are social creatures. it's so complex. damn, and so far, the most challenging relationships that i've faced are family ones. finding myself affected by things, people. when, i usually forget them relatively easily. oh wells, one can't really stop the mind from wandering if the thoughts just come to me. sometimes, all of us must learn to let go better. i can do it, but learning to let go is not as easy as it sounds. i've always live by the policy of letting people do what they want, live how they want, as long as they are not hurting anyone. it's not as easy as it sounds as, but i can do it. and the point is, i realise i've let go at this point already. so, if others really want to nitpick at things, thinking that life is really pathetic for them, and everyone is at fault but themselves, i can only respect the decision that they have made. no matter what, it's a free country.

sighs, piano students, can't they just practise for once?

have to get my motivation for piano playing back. it's really not there right now :(

concovation is just a month and half away. don't even know what am i looking forward to anymore... life goes on, with a purpose, i've to find mine?