post-batam

what a hectic week.... i love what happened the past week, yet abhor some things too.... haha, all in all, a balance life... sort of.... went batam for audit. it was my first time there, and boy, it does feel nice to travel business class, for business purposes, haha.... albeit in a ferry.... =)

it was the usual audit performed at the company. i got to hear office politics, lots of it in fact... suddenly many things seem to tie up. it's really scary how i have to keep my mouth shut and all. just hope that by lending a listening ear, i have not gotten into trouble... sigh, even though gossip is nice, at a cost, it's not worth it.... anyway, just 4 more weeks!! oh my! i can't believe it, soon, i can rest!!! haha.... i can't wait man...

at the beginning, the idea of working is really tiring and irritating. just hate the idea of going to work all the time. however, there was one day when, somehow, i just fit my motions into my usual routine, and, it doesn't seem so tiring and irritating anymore. it's just part and parcel of life? many people say studying is better than working, i haven't arrive at my own conclusions yet. BUT, i realise that, when working, colleagues are just colleagues, at the end of the day, they mean nothing much. in school, it's rather different, we have to face the people we interact with at the end of the day.... my senior told me about her own experiences, which i agree... as we get older, we are more exposed to the idea of competition. no matter how much someone wants to get away from it, it will still haunt us.

i hate the idea of competition, and i try to abstain from it. however, i realise, i can't stop others from comparing, competing. no matter what people say, they do compare. i'm no exception. i hide from it, because i hate it, and i do not wish to see it in front of me. i also realise that i can no longer run away from it any longer. i will not drown in useless competition, even though, it is part and parcel of life, but, perhaps, just try not to get angry and agitated whenever i'm faced with it.... haha, many things to learn indeed...

family family family.... just about family i guess....

sigh, work is boring right now..... hope that the last month passes very quickly!!! =)