dear ps! miss u sorely.... wishing you all the best in mfa... let me know when u are out of work and we'll chill before all the whirlwind of school and work gets in the way... and also, don't think too much alright... life's good for you right now and i love to hear from you about *winks* take care!

today is a day of chores. haha, have not mopped the floor for a long time. it doesn't really help that i have a middle finger which seems to be sprained. and of all fingers.... life really works out interesting doesn't it. hope it doesn't get any worse. don't relish the thought of visiting the doc. my dislike for the doctors have not really gone away... hopefully, my piano playing doesn't get affected :(

disappointed in my friends. i guess, it's really the end for us. both of us played a part and i know that u don't see it that way. sighs, i have been blocking thoughts about u for about a month, and i have to face up to reality about it. sighs, does our friendship have what it takes to go through this rough patch? somehow, i don't think so. missing u? yes, definitely, a little. we've been friends for so long. God will show the way if this friendship is meant to last.... have faith, it's all that i have to do actually. as for u, hope that things work out for u in the long run. your life, career and friends :)

was writing in my physical diary today. it suddenly struck me that women are funny creatures. no matter how much a strong front that they present, inside is a vulnerability that is easily shaken by people. many have told me that i have the courage to stand up for myself, am determined, essentially, characteristics that attribute to strength. in spite of what i tell people, i have allowed this vulnerability to be shaken recently. whether by purpose or not, it has happened. oh wells, it's time that i learn my lesson once again from recent events. it's so easy to let one's emotions overwhelm and feel things that one doesn't normally feel. it's time to rearrange myself once again and be the person that i was not so long ago.

and i wonder, why did i ever put faith into you? anyone can be foolish, i'm no exception.

courage, many lack this. courage to admit that you are wrong. courage to apologize when you are in the wrong. courage, to admit your doings/wrongdoings. courage to say that one have insulted another. i've learnt this the hard way. perhaps, through maturity and experience, one can then build up and possess this courage. and i forget because i still can't believe how i allow myself to be swept into all these. as for me, i lack the courage to say i need your friendship, because, you have always shaken this vulnerability of mine. oh wells, as i said, i can also learn again.

another disappointment. i'll live.

extremity. singaporeans always have the inclination to see things this way. well, for matters of the heart, i do that too. haha, i'm human. other things, what can i say? we are in singapore.

expectations about responses have been met. my personality of being an analytical thinker has its merits. haha, yup, obviously, it's laughable.

next week promises to be a busy one :) good, i need some positive distractions in my life.

God Bless. :)