i heard a piece of stunning news today. my piano student, of 11 years old, has a girlfriend for a year. i'm shocked, seriously... it really brought me some new insights of how the young are viewing relationships. i thought of my childhood(not so long ago! haha), it was all so innocent... everyone's basically my friend. of course, there are all those teasing. and he even showed me her gf's pic on his handphone. my oh my.... i thought he was trying to impress me, but, his sister looked so serious. well, there's something new to discover everyday...

i've honestly underestimated the impact of my actions. i thought it would not affect me that much, but, the results showed otherwise. erasing someone from your life doesn't take much. deleting someone from your handphone list, msn list, friendster list, facebook listing, etc. pretending that the person doesn't exist, simply, doesn't take much. but, the memories will always come back whenever u are at a place that means alot to you. those memories, just refuse to go away. time will make them go away, and by then, i hope that i will think of u less often.

my heart feels heavy nowadays. i know the reason why. but i must stick to what i've started with. what can i do? i want to stop playing, no point in misleading you and me. sighs...

the piano exams are arriving. can't wait for it to be over...! hope that all my students pass. i have some doubts, but being a teacher, i can only hope and pray for the best :)

been complaining much about ppl recently. returning back to a not-so-pleasant me in the past. i will try to control, but sometimes, ppl do things to irritate me, and, i just can't help but let out steam. aargh! and, also, i want to improve myself, most of all, feel some motivation to work hard instead of thinking of slacking all the time. yay! no engagements for 2 weeks, will be able to be let off early! i must enjoy these 2 weeks. really.

hope to catch up with my sisters, friends. :)

相信 - 孙燕姿

突然觉得我只是一个人
有点孤单浅浅的忧郁
我不知道明天会不会很美丽
虽然今天天很蓝 而云很白 风很凉
今天日记空白没有关系 不必每件事情都在意
不想工作 不想困扰自己 不必刻意想你
该是我的总会来 就算挑战 我不走开
一点点你的微笑 已经让我觉得温暖
我还不懂坚持 正好让我 学会去爱
我曾经看见困难 变得胆小 不够勇敢
但还是要相信 相信感觉 相信简单
有一天 等我懂得现实也许更灰心
至少现在让我去相信 哦
我还是会相信 相信感觉 相信简单