my voice sounds real sexy. haha. it's from the redbox singing for about 7 hours. it was fun, hearing the "old" guys sing. laughing along with the gals... wonder when will the next opportunity come where we just basically have crazy fun.

how was training? the positive me started to feel a little enthusiastic when i arrived at the airport. however, there's not much fun in seeing the people that i have seen for the past 3 years. i mean, the feelings are the same, the expectations don't really differ, sighs, what's new? i start to ask myself...

training is boring. i mean, i rather learn on the job. but being a big company, they probably think the seniors have no time. sighs, i hope everything went in even though i was trying so hard not to sleep. the assessment next week, hopefully it's not too difficult. sighs.

i keep sighing. i don't know if my expectations are too high. i find the people boring. to a certain extent, all i keep hearing is food food and more food. they are nice, no doubt, just.... sighs.... perhaps, i really do expect too much. anyway, not really thinking too much, just live each day as it comes. and hope that i do not offend anyone, and if i do, i don't really want to care anymore. and to u, perhaps, find your own style and stop copying mine in your manner of speaking. its very irritating. i don't mind u talking negative stuff about me, just find your style alright.... damn annoying.

it's very true how work takes your mind off things. training makes me forget about my own problems for a while. which is good, i need to forget about unhappy stuff, even for a while.

sighs, i wonder, if i have the courage to pursue my own dream. it seems like i'm trapped and i can't get out of my own melodramatic mood right now, or rather, these few days. sighs.

and i want to go to the arcade.