the last day of freedom is definitely a bittersweet one. wondering what should i do? but there's still lots of packing to be done. i feel really reluctant to pack my luggage. perhaps, once it's packed, everything is set and done, and i cannot escape anymore. it's really easy to escape, running away from reality. these few days have been great ones! been thinking how sucky work is definitely helps. i made myself really abhor the idea of working. but then, the truth is, i need to work. i need the moolahs. sighs. perhaps, that's really a strong motivation. many debts to clear :(

a little excited at what the next week will bring, in the sense that, i really thrive on a suitable environment. however, i have my doubts on my working environment, however, i have a tendency to see the good in everything, so, i guess, this is no different. i hate the idea of wallowing in self-pity, though trying hard to see the positive side in everything is like self-deluding, at least, it's better than living in misery everyday. sighs....

sighs. i'm really lousy at rejecting people. my heart softens easily once a person starts to tug at my heart strings. have to resolve it soon :( shouldn't make life difficult for myself....

sighs, keep thinking of playing at the arcade. :( i should grow up soon i guess. arcade is such a good place for escapism. killing those zombies really makes my day. anyone who is keen to go, please ask me! haha.... well, at least something to look forward to my mundane life.

guess the first thing that i will miss once i'm 0verseas is my piano. can't wait to be back to feel the ivory keys beneath my fingers once again :) sighs. can't wait to come back soon :(

keep sighing. sighs. praying for a better next week. i really should thinking so much about things. even though i can cancel everything out relatively easy, i shouldn't even go to that extent of making myself miserable :( sighs.

and i wish simply, don't hide things from me. sighs.