training is alright for now. feeling the heat though, when the trainers played out reel-life senarios for us to react. it was quite stressful, as i don't really know how to behave and ask the right questions. it reminded me about school for a while. sighs, it's really difficult to walk out from one competitive environment to another. however, i guess, the competition faced is of a different kind now. i have never thought of outshining anyone, so, yeah, kind of a wrong environment for me i guess. however, i do want to achieve my best in anything i do, so that's not too bad i guess. just don't want to do the things i'm forced to forever.

the challenge for me right now is to juggle work, piano teaching, learning and practising. it ain't as hard as i thought. it just is much harder. sighs, i really miss my piano, but, there's nothing i can do. hearing horror stories of how late we have to work really sends shivers down my spine. everything is within expectations of course, but, i like to thing that things are not as tough as i thought. i'll just have to take each step as it goes. but, i'm really prepared for a no life siim ann for at least 3 years. sighs, can u imagine? i don't even have time to catch a movie! aargh...

have u ever wondered what it's like to fall for someone who is attached. haha, it's painful for sure. so, i do have to learn from my lesson, and remind myself, don't feel and do things on impulse. it'll come back to haunt me for sure. haha.... dear, u don't have time anyway :P

was asking my training colleagues today, will they ever date someone who smokes? all of them gave a vehement NO! wasn't that surprised. but was rather taken aback when one of them ask me why did i ask that question.... haha... then i followed up with, what if the person quit for u? some said no, and some said, then we'll see.... when i was asked in turn, i said, well, i can consider, cos it's rather sweet.

sighs, must study for the assessment on friday. hope i pass well...