i need more motivation

if only i can feel more towards doing well for quizzes. sigh, i don't even feel as though the world is falling down on me even though i will fail the quiz. sigh, i don't even feel down that i don't really know how to do any questions. sigh, can i feel more about my studies? somehow, the quiz seems to be a hinderance to the finals. yeah, stupid thoughts on my part, but still, they come. i don't have the full confidence of doing well, yet, right now, i just don't feel like doing anything about it yet. if so, when is the right time? damn, i really do see things from too much perspectives.

sometimes, i wonder, am i that different from others? everyone around me is so concerned about their studies. even though there's some who doesn't show it, the fact that they keep talking about it shows. sigh, i don't even want to talk about it. i have long stopped thinking what is my niche, the lack of it, or even whether am i going down the right path. as long as i can get a job, i have no other worries. sigh, can i get just a little bit of motivation? sigh.

well, another thing that perks me up! hikaru! this anime is so nice.. i've been chasing after if for a few days. perhaps, after i've finished it, i'll get back to studying! haha.... =)

suddenly, i feel that there are many strangers around me. it seems we were friends before, but now, everything just changes. i can't help but muse at the uncertainty of change. change is good i believe. it's hard to imagine life as a constant. that'll be quite boring. however, one thing that strikes me is that people are bothering to keep up with appearances much. well, perhaps, life is always like that. we can't always expect the idyllic aspects of life.

many projects are upcoming. hopefully, they'll all go away soon and i concentrate on studying. whatever time that i have left. sigh... =(